Agnes

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Oh! Posting this outside of the cut for promo reasons >:) Sunset is doing our first prompt meme! If you're on Sunset, come drop a few prompts and maybe pick up a few ;) If you're NOT on Sunset and love femslash, check us out! 

That's all for now. See ya :)

Hey DW.

Things have been hard for me lately. I've been really obsessed with Starfleet Academy since I posted my review of it... and this is my first active, popular fandom in... oh... maybe a decade? And, of course, I'm someone who typically gravitates towards problematic/taboo ships, and I've gotten a lot of hate for being into Nahla/Caleb. (For a few days I actually thought it would be popular. Silly me!) I know, I know, antis are stupid and just block them, but I'm incredibly sensitive and I also already have lost quite a few friends due to a social media misunderstanding, plus I had to cut off my ex best friend for personal reasons, so I'm just... feeling very much like there's no place in the world I fit in. I'm starting to go in to situations assuming I will never be accepted and that the rug can and will be pulled out from underneath me at any moment.  I find myself wondering why I didn't come to that conclusion earlier.

Also, I don't want to go into it, but the Current Events with certain documents? (under cut for tw; not graphic but the very topic is enough to trigger me, and this is very negative)

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Anyway, SFA has been a really big coping mechanism for me lately in regards to these events--Nahla/Caleb specifically is helping me cope with some shit, which I don't wanna go into for severely personal reasons, so to be hated on for how I enjoy this show when I am using it in this manner? It really hurts. I've been implied to be an ICE supporter, a child abuse supporter... I just can't handle it.

I find it difficult to be online, but my entire life is online. I have no friends IRL and no way to leave my house or usually bed because of my disability. I can only socialize through the internet---no other ways of socialization are accessible to me. So to have these agonies (not just the anti stuff, but the News In General) be everywhere, and the only feasible solution to having to see it be unplugging entirely... it's hard! And also I don't want to be the person who indulges in escapism at the detriment of staying informed and aware. But man. It's just. I don't know. Discord is doing a thing where it's making every single person do a face scan or ID upload and several of my friends are telling me goodbye because they don't want to do that (completely understandable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and that's. The main place I talk to my friends on. :(

I think I need to take a break from exchanges. I've had to default a lot recently. I really want to do Space Swap and HA but I think I need to focus on myself for a while. And it sucks because HA is my favorite exchange :/ We'll see if I can miraculously stop feeling awful by the time SpaSwap signups end.

Anyway, I care for you all deeply. Hope you're all well. <3

So! I watched Starfleet Academy last night. Only episode 1, because I'm watching with my mom who only does one "stressful" episode of anything a day, lol. I have lots of thoughts. In 2017 I got obsessed with the Kelvinverse Starfleet Academy minicomic, so I have been waiting for a Starfleet Academy series for NINE ENTIRE YEARS. It came... not in the way I expected.

SPOILERS BELOW YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

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Hello snowflake challenge participants and readers! Snowflake is quickly becoming one of my favorite parts of Dreamwidth. This challenge...

In your own space, create a list of at least three things you'd love to receive, a wishlist of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it and include a link to your wishlist if you feel comfortable doing so.

1) I loveeeeee user icons omg. I love them, collect em, and would love some of any of my fav things, which for reference are (some links to screencap sites included, ones I could find them for anyway)

• The Orville (Charly, Alara, Solana, Kaylon Primary/Secondary/Tertiary/all 3, post-transition Topa, Claire, Kelly, Teleya; Kelly/&Teleya, Kelly&/Topa, Alara/&Solana),
• Doom Patrol (if you can make me Negative Spirit icons, I would love ya forever, I've tried and I suck at it; also Valentina, Jane/underground alters (any), Isabel Feathers, sisterhood of dada girlies),
• Palia (Elouisa, Caleri, Tish, Subira),
• Star Trek Online (Zarva, T'Vrell, Elisa, Tovan, Rinna, Veril, Satra),
• Pluribus (Zosia, Carol/Zosia),
• Extraordinary (Jen),
• Babylon 5 (Morden, Anna, Talia, Lyta, Neeoma, Kosh, Dureena; Kosh/Lyta, Dureena/Sarah)
• Charmed 2018 (Macy, Maggie, Fiona, Charity)
• Charmed 1998 (Prue, Prue/Cole)
• Star Trek: LWD (Tendi, D'Erika, Beckett, Badgey; D'ERika&/D'Vana, Beckett/&Carol, Beckett & Tendi)

2) I'd love some more friends who are into the Orville stuff I mentioned, or any Orville femslash, female characters, or any Orville "dead dove"/darkfic enjoyers! I have very few people to talk about this with.

3) Comments on my fanfic--I write largely for the aforementioned things, and some other stuff too. I'm very rarepair centric, female character centric, femslash centric, minor character centric, and therefore I don't get a lot of comments :p

4) More personal sites to check out! Do you have a website or read the personal website of anyone cool? Drop it here below! And I have one too, let me know if you'd like to exchange buttons.

Thanks for readinggg!! :)

snowflake_challenge : Loosely defined! Post about your pets, pets from your canon, anything you want! 

Oh man! I don't know about this one. 

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Happy 2026!

I'm still trying to get used to the fact that it's 2026. I've been having a real difficult time these past few months, and I've been very dissociative so it's hard for me to process the passage of time. But man, it's a new year, which means it's time to look back on the previous year's fanworks.

In 2025, I wrote 127.8k words. It was the first year I actually tracked every word I wrote, but I'm pretty sure it's the most productive year I've ever had. I'm really proud of myself for that. I have 6 pages of fic written in 2025, so instead of listing them all, I'll just list my favorites for each month.

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So yeah! There were my favorite fanworks of the year. I hope I have an even more productive 2026.

Sorry I haven't been on much; I've been sleeping 16-20 hours a day! I'm getting tested for narcolepsy or idiopathic hypersomnia soon, I just keep having these attacks of sleepiness and then sleeping for hours and hours and hours. I've been trying to write and do fandom things but I just am struggling so much with it when I'm sleepy all the time :( but I hope you're all doing well!

✨ holiday love meme 2025 ✨
my thread here
you know the drill: comment with your username (any and all social media platforms welcome!) and people will anonymously reply to your thread with bits of encouragement, well wishes, declarations of undying devotion, etc.

always have so much fun with this one!!

I started this on my last account and never transferred it over here, but I'm still trying to work on my 100ships completion!! Here's the table: 

#01 – Adamant	#02 – Snow	#03 – Lion	#04 –Spark	#05 – Amber
#06 – Lust	#07 – Bronze	#08 – Mint	#09 – Arctic	#10 – Black
#11 – Moonlight	#12 – Sunlight	#13 – Blue	#14 – Navy	#15 – Tea
#16 – Neon	#17 – Twilight	#18 – Blush	#19 – Wine	#20 – Nude
#21 – Rhythm	#22 – Brown	#23 – Linen	#24 – Ember	#25 – Thistle
#26 – Cherry	#27 – Orange	#28 – Vanilla	#29 – Bone	#30 – Harlequin
#31 – Cadet	#32 – Chocolate	#33 – Peach	#34 – Lead	#35 – Cream
#36 – Sand	#37 – White	#38 – Crimson	#39 – Pink	#40 – Ocean
#41 – Dove	#42 – Platinum	#43 – Yellow	#44 – Earth	#45 – Midnight
#46 – Pearl	#47 – Frostbite	#48 – Pumpkin	#49 – Electric	#50 – Purple
#51 – Coral	#52 – Salt	#53 – Crow	#54 – Rainbow	#55 – Cloud
#56 – Flame	#57 – Red	#58 – Ash	#59 – Rose	#60 – Slate
#61 – Green	#62 – Ruby	#63 – Olive	#64 – Lipstick	#65 – Spice
#66 – Grey	#67 – Denim	#68 – Rust	#69 – Flirt	#70 – Sunset
#71 – Sable	#72 – Desert	#73 – Jade	#74 – Sage	#75 – Buff
#76 – Jet	#77 – Plum	#78 – Leather	#79 – Liberty	#80 – Metal
#81 – Sepia	#82 – Lavender	#83 – Scarlet	#84 – Crystal	#85 – Chestnut
#86 – Shadow	#87 – Lemon	#88 – Mystic	#89 – Silver	#90 – Coffee
#91 – Seafoam	#92 – Lime	#93 – Punch	#94 – Pickle	#95 – Champagne
#96 – Copper	#97 – Bittersweet	#98 – Honey	#99 – Candy	#100 – Gold